the secret

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pur whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
you want to blow my book sales in
Europe?

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a man
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?

ch. bukowski, bluebird

meet bumba :)

the fear

cateodata stau fata in fata cu mine si ma simt ca un copil care a ajuns la scoala cu lectia neinvatata...

oceans never listen to us anyway

You’re on the distant shore
Yo’re on the distant shore
Oceans never listen to us anyway,
Oceans never listen to us anyway.
And if I fall into the drink,
I will say your name before I sink.

He says your name out loud;
In miniature rooms where no one’s found;
It’s a desperate sound.
You’re on the distant shore
He stamps his feet down
You hear his knuckles on your door.
He wants to send you drawings
Drawings of men with faithful hands
They’ll make such good boyfriends
He wants to tell you stories
Stories of boys who stomped their feet saying,
“Shut – shut up I am dreaming of places
Where lovers have wings.”

“I’ll meet you where the river forks;
When everyone else is dead
You’ll be safe on the water
We’ll be much younger if we remember.
You’re on the distant shore
I stamp my feet down—Down do you hear knuckles
On your door. Do you understand
What I’m fighting for?
Oh,Oceans never listen to us anyway.
Oceans never listen to us anyway.
And if I fall into the drink,
I will say your name before I sink.
Oceans never listen to us anyway.

I’m afraid of the water;
I’m afraid of the sky.
I’m tired of waiting.
Oceans never listen to us anyway,
Oceans never listen to us anyway.
And if I fall into the drink,
I will say your name before I sink.
So… don’t make a sound.
Don’t make a sound.

heart shaped bruises :)

Cradle me
I'll cradle you
I'll win your heart
with a wit woo
pulling shapes just for your eyes

so with toothpaste kisses and lines

I'll be yours and you'll be

Lay with me, I'll lay with you
we'll do the things that lovers do
put the stars into our eyes

so with heart shaped bruises
and late night kisses
divine

don't even make a sound

imagine

I looked at the ocean and the
ocean looked good, full of blues and
greens and sharks.

Ch Bukowski

just as you dance, dance, dance

spread the word

shut me up

"Ten decisions shape your life,
you'll be aware of 5 above,
7 ways to go through school,
either you're noticed or left out,
7 ways to get ahead,
7 reasons to drop by,
when i said ' I can see me in your eyes',
you said 'I can see you in my bed',
that's not just friendship that's romance too,
you like music we can dance to,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

There is a time when we all fail,
some people take it pretty well,
some take it all out on themselves,
some they just take it out on friends,
oh everybody plays the game,
and if you don't you're called insane,

Don't don't don't don't it's not safe no more,
i've got to see you one more time,
soon you were born,
in 1984,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

Everybody was well dressed,
and everybody was a mess,
6 things without fail you must do,
so that your woman loves just you,
oh all the girls played mental games,
and all the guys were dressed the same,

Why not try it all,
if you only remember it once,
ooooooooooooooooooooooo,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

(okay one more time)"